The Devil Of DayBreak - The Rebellious Renegade

moving on is never easy

2010-04-11T21:50:00.002+08:00

a BF challenged his GF to live a day without him,no communicati0n at all n said if shes passes it,he'll ♥ her 4eva。the GF agreed,she did n0t text or call her BF the wh0le day without kn0wing that his BF is suffering fr0m cancer,she accidentally went to his BF h0use the next day。tears fall as she saw her BF lying in the... c0ffin with the n0te "u did it baby,can u do it everyday?I ♥ U"

my dreams

2009-08-28T17:23:00.000+08:00

Dreaming... I was dreaming... Perhaps it may have been but a long forgotten
memory... A
dream... A memory... Things remembered when one is asleep... Things forgotten
when one is
awake... Where the deepest layers of memories become the outmost layers of
one's dreams...
Which are reality? Which are illusions? One cannot tell until one awakes... Or
perhaps they
are, at the same time, both truth and fiction... A vast nebulous... With no
boundaries... An
emptiness equivalent to my own existence... I dreamt such a dream... A long...
Never-ending,
dream...

In that dream, I was an artist... I had become
recognized as a
talented artist and i was painting the portrait of the the only women
i ever loved

It was better tat way... Just two people, together... It was better to have
left it that
way... but i told her i was out of paint... and so i stopped... and when off..

I lied... I wasn't out of paint. I just feared I would finish the portrait.
I wanted to
keep on painting... forever. So I wanted to buy time... She'd probably despise
me for that...
No, she'd probably just give me her usual smile, She was that kind of woman...

Dreams... about my life And the lives of countless other
men... All but
dreams... Now that I am awake, those countless numbers of long, heartrending
dreams are almost
impossible to remember at all... In those dreams, I loved one woman... No
matter the day, no
matter the era... That did not change... Nor did her name...

A dream... I was dreaming a dream... Or perhaps it was a memory. From a
distant past...
A dream... A memory... Those words I was unable to convey... That day... That
time... Those
thoughts I was unable to carry out... Words and thoughts... The connection
between the two...
Without words, thoughts cannot be conveyed... Without thoughts, There are no
words... They are
both as vital as each other... They can never be divided... Like the wings of
angels... Like
a man and a woman... An unchangeable destiny... Feelings one wishes one could
change... Meeting
without the person who would change me... And watching myself change... I
dreamt such a
dream... A long... Never-ending dream...

That dream changed me... That dream was the catalyst for me to resolve what
my purpose
was. I think I know now... What I have to do... That long, long memory of a
dream... Perhaps
it was the memory of my soul...

my new desktop XD and life -_-"

2009-06-18T00:34:00.003+08:00

awesome huh? kekeke... anyways dont update much lately.. been bz in life *gaming my ass off*

hahahaha not really just bz with life... dont even have time to go msn sometimes, late alone update my blog... my windows live messanger was dead 3weeks i think and i had to resort to ebuddy -_-". now its fixed FINALLY!!!!!

still with my nurul husna... but she's going umrah this 19th X( gah... i have a major eye beg -_-" i've been sleeping 3-4 ahour for 1 month now... been hanging out with fiendsr back in form1-3 from 12am - 4am and some times 5...and wake up at 7 -_-"...

i think its a good year for me this year.. yes.. i think i got over my best friend tho... i think..but i could never forget her..she's actually a good friend once u get to know her like i did...hmm what else ah yea its 1year now since i had my drivers lisens XD RENEW!!!! HAHAHA... i also renew my IC so my is short -_-" but my name is stated as PENGIRAN MUHAMMAD ZULFADHLI BIN PENGIRAN ZULKIFLI yay XD was gana post the pic but i looked retarded -_-"...

my brother's back for UK.. and off to ship soon on the 25th so smpat liat TRANSFORMER PREMIER!!!!! XD oye i kinda bought him guitar hero world tour for his birthday... kinda aha..he payed $150 and i payed another $159 for him cos it was $309... for some weird reason i played it more then him lol XD oyea he use to teach me and owned me in this game called dota... but now i own his ass hahaha.. BEYOND GOD LIKE XD

my cuz fendy's getting married soon.. goodluck dude.. i mean it hahaha.. gana be a bz month this months... yes.. hmm guess that about it... ran out of ideas..

its was TWO years on the 24th of may 2009

2009-05-29T20:41:00.005+08:00

the 1st girl I've ever bought flowers for in my entire life... since it was my 1st 2years anniversary so i figured for my baby, I'd do something special and since she loves flowers... red and purple, 2 of each representing our 2 years together... she really loved it she couldn't let go of the flowers lol..she even kept smiling the whole time XD she even cried... i wrote my baby something really special but i wont post it here it's for my bay only sorry X(.. we had a really great time together.. now and always... i wanna protect her smile... cos baby i love you... more then you could ever know... i love my nurul husna XD

GELA JUA 2 -_-"

2009-03-31T21:49:00.003+08:00

Dear (Someone you recently talked to),
I don't really know how to tell you this, (1). I think I realized it (2) (3) and I saw you (4) (5). I'm sure you're (6) enough to understand (7). I'm returning (8) to you, but I'll keep (9) as a memory. You should also know that I (10) and (11).

(12),
(Your Name)

The Questions;D
1) What's the color of your shirt?
Blue - I'm in love with your cat
Red - Our affair is over
White - I’m joining the Convent
Black -Our romance is over
Green- Our socks don't match
Grey - You're a leprechaun
Yellow - I'm selling myself for candy
Pink - Your nostrils are insulting
Brown - The mafia wants you
No shirt - Purple hedgehogs want to destroy you
Other -I dislike your eyelashes

2) Which is your birth month?
January - That night you picked your nose
February -When I quoted Forrest Gump
March - When your dwarf bit me
April - When I tripped on peanut butter
May - When I threw up in your sock drawer
June - When you put cuffs on me
July – When I saw the purple monkey
August - When you smacked my ass
September - Last year when you peed your pants
October - When we skinny dipped in the bathtub
November - When your dog humped my leg
December - When I finally changed my underwear

3) Which food do you prefer?
Tacos - When we skinny dipped in the bathtub
Chicken- In your car
Pasta - Outside of your office
Hamburgers - Under the bus
Salad – As you were eating Kraft Dinner
Lasagna - In your closet
Kebab - With Jean Chrétien
Fish - In a clown suit
Sandwiches - At the Elton John concert
Pizza - At the mental hospital
Hot dog - Under a street light
Annat- With George Bush and Stephen Harper

4) What's the color of your socks?
Yellow - Ignore
Red - Put whipped cream on
Black - Hit on
Blue - Knock out
Purple - Pour syrup on
White - Carve your initials into
Grey - Pull the clothes off
Brown - bit of
Orange - Castrate
Pink - Pull the pants off of
Barefoot - Sit on
Other - Drive over

5) What's the color of your underwear?
Black - My boyfriend
White - My father
Grey – The Catholic Priest
Brown – The Montreal Canadian’s goalie
Purple - My corned beef hash
Red – My knee caps
Blue - My salt-beef bucket
Yellow - My illegitimate child in Ghana
Orange - My Blink 182 cd
Pink – Your ‘My Little Pony’ collection
Other --The elephant in the corner

6) What do you prefer to watch on TV?
One Tree Hill - Senile
Heroes- Frostbitten
Lost - High
Simpsons- Cowardly
The news - Scarred
American Idol - Masochistic
Family Guy - Open
Top Model - Middle-class
Annat -shamed

7) Your mood right now?
Happy - How awful you are
Sad - How boring you are
Bored - That I get turned on only by garbage men
Angry - That your smell makes me vomit
Depressed – That we’re related
Excited - That I may pee my pants
Nervous - The middle-east is planning their revenge on you
Worried - That your Ford sucks
Apathetic - That you need a sex-change
Silly - That I'm allergic to your earlobes
Cuddly - That Santa doesn't exist
Ashamed - That there is no solution to you being a dumb kid
Other - That your driving sucks

8) What's the color of your walls in your bedroom?
White - Your toe ring
Yellow - Your love letters to me
Red - The pictures from Vegas
Black - Your pet rock
Blue - The couch cushions
Green - Your car
Orange - Your false teeth
Brown - Your nose hair clippers
Grey - Our matching snoopy underwear
Purple - Your old New Kids on the Block blanket
Pink - The cut toenails
Other - Your Hannah Montana underwear

9) The first letter of your first name?
A/B - My virginity
C/D - Your photo with the moustache drawn on it
E/F - Your neighbors dog
G/H - The oil tank from your car
I/J - Your left ear
K/L - The results of that blood-sample
M/N - Your glass eye
O/P - My common sense
Q/R - Your mom
S/T - Your collection of butterflies
U/V - Your criminal record
W/X – Your sucide note
Y/Z - Your credit cards

10) The last letter in your last name?
A/B - Love your sweet, sweet ass
C/D - Always will remember the pep talks
E/F -Never will forget that night
G/H – Will not tell the authorites that you stole the whale from the backyard.
I/J – Mocked you behind your back constantly
K/L - Hate your cooking
M/N - Told in my confession today about the moose poaching
O/P - Told my psychiatrist about the bruises
Q/R - Always wanted to break your legs
S/T - Get sick when I think of your feet
U/V - Will try to forget that you broke my heart
W/X - Haven’t showered in a month
Y/Z – am better off without you

11) What do you prefer to drink?
Wine- Our friendship is ruined
Soft drink – I’m off to lead a new life as a lemon
Soda – I will haunt you when I’m reincarnated as an Eskimo
Milk - The apartment building is on fire
Water – I'm scratching my butt as you read this
Cider– I have a passionate interest for mice
Juice – You ruined my attempts at another world war
Mineral/Vitamin water – You should get that embarrassing rash checked
Hot chocolate – Your Cucumber-fetishism is weird
Whiskey - I love Oprah Winfrey
Beer – Thanks for the Cocaine
Other – you should stop picking your nose

12) To which country would you prefer to go on a vacation?
Thailand – Warm tingly sensations
Australia - Best of luck on the sex change
France - Love always
Spain - With tears of sadness
China – You make me sick
Germany – Please don’t hurt me
Japan - Go milk a cow
Greece - Your everlasting enemy
USA - Greetings to your frog Leonard
Egypt – Kiss my butt
England - Go drown yourself.

Dear *YOU*,
I don't really know how to tell you this, Our affair is over. I think I realized it When I threw up in your sock drawer In your closet and I saw you Hit on The elephant in the corner. I'm sure you're cowardly enough to understand That your Ford sucks. I'm returning The pictures from Vegas to you, but I'll keep my virginity as a memory. You should also know that I Never will forget that night and I’m off to lead a new life as a lemon.

Go milk a cow,
adee/deeboy

princess MNB birthday

2009-03-17T18:00:00.004+08:00

my new hair -_-" at empire at the teather

adi and ajim *cam gay yo* hahhaha

uncle kahirul escorting the sultan

the table setting
*when i came the bread was already cold-_-"*

the appetizers
*smoked salmon, chicken and pinapple on a stick and tomatos* -_-"

the main course
*daging rendang, fried chicken and veggies and friend rice*

the dessert
* apple and pear crumble, chocolate cake and mango something hahha i forgot p nyaman!!!!*

our phone are a like as too our feelings towards each other

2009-03-08T12:16:00.005+08:00

me and my baby's phone...mine's the red and black..her is the pink and white... LG KS360...she was really happy to get the same phone as mine.. she almost cried when i gave her that phone and was shocked as hell lol... i tink i spoil her too much XD the phone make's msg'ing alot easier.. its just now its hard to msg during driving -_-" she just got the phone last night and her pics is already double the amount of mine -_-" the reason i gave her the phone a week after got the phone was to piss her off hahhaa... she was like " au bali hp nda sama syg nda g tau 2 bali hp baru..hp syg apa jua" hahhaha...the only reason i got the phone was it works with my wireless headset -_-" husna wanted it because it looks really nice..she's been eyeing the phone for awhile already.. now she got it.. thanks to the boyfriend.. ahahha... whatever makes her happy... was gana wait for her birthday but that's gana take too long.. i got it for her beacuse her phone got run over by a car.. she was really upset and she's been using an old phone.. doenst even have colour and no mp3 -_-" cian kn? yath... now she cant wipe the smile off her face hahaha... love u baby XD

me and baby and susi and mirul

2009-03-04T14:13:00.003+08:00

susi and mirul

saja lol

went out with my baby yesterday.. her friend susi and her boyfriend mirul wanted us to join.. they picked us up and when to C.A.M at gadong for breakfast.. was craving for murtabak.. lol been since i ate 1.. then when to hua ho bunut.. then stayed at baby's place the whole day made love lol.. nadadeh played video game and beat the hell out off everyone there in guitar hero3,ddr,dragon ball infinite world and king of fighters regulation A lol.... not a single lost not even to baby XD

bored'ing

2009-03-04T14:08:00.002+08:00

was that bored -_-"

the ugama method of opening a locked cubicle -_-"

2009-03-04T14:00:00.002+08:00

the toilet was locked and i really needed to go.. i figured the door was plasic so it wont break easily.. so i tried my ugama method of opening a door... i forgot that the inside of the door had a mirror.. so i kicked the mofa and it open all right but in a way it wont close anymore -_-" and i had to clean the mess while my bro took pics.. thanks for being useless -_-"

LG KS360 RED

2009-03-03T21:49:00.002+08:00

adee emo'ing

2009-02-18T01:21:00.004+08:00

Only the young have not had their Hearts Broken. But there comes an age when all of us have our hearts broken. The first Heart break is usually the hardest and one we never forget. What goes on on our minds when this happens is sometimes hard to remember. Just the thought of what could have happened if you stayed with this person some times has my mind spinning.

The older we get the harder our heart gets and heart brake seems far away. The second time you get your heart broken its not as bad as the first but it still doesn't mean you where not heart some times the second be worst then the first if this was not just a crush but a real long standing relationships that end in something bad. If the one you loves cheats on you you just have to learn to go on even if your heart gets broken.

If you have had more than two heart breaks than things seem to get a lot easier. Some might say that I will never ever love again. But still others say love them leave them and find another. I have always been told, it is better to have loved than to have never loved at all.

My advice to you is to take your time and make sure you are really in love and don't let your heart get broken. Its hard to recover some times and you might find your self with other problems if you let it get to you. I look for friends first and if love comes it comes. Just hopefully my heart does not get broken again I don't think I could take any more.

1 vs 2 in dotA Allstars

2009-02-17T13:05:00.000+08:00

*****

2009-02-04T13:50:00.002+08:00

its as if the flowers are dancing with the wing... its as if the rain is moisturizing the earth... this world perpetually acquire the other to survive. if so, why do people hurt each other? why are they goodbyes? even if you travel to a faraway place, i will always store that gentle smile deep inside my heart. by holding in the fragment of you... i feel pain but also a close connection, believe me, we will meet again. i'm waiting for you love. i love you. i trust you. i want to share your loneliness. light and darkness does not matter, because we trust each other this much... no, don't let go.

fishs with ass

2009-02-04T12:12:00.001+08:00

.....

2009-01-24T10:37:00.003+08:00

i cant sing song with honest lyric because i always end up sugar coating the words. when did someone laid-back as me realize he had something worth protecting. don't leave me, you would have stayed here back then, I've lost you, its not anyone's fault but.... i know there are things more important to me then becoming an adult. but i'll be growing up the whole time i'm trying to figure out what there are. you say we cant stay like there forever? i know.. so lets take that first step.

bored...

2009-01-24T07:59:00.001+08:00

finally my laptop's back!!!!! hahaha i feel so alive....hahaha.... and my webcam isnt up side down anymore hahaha....

grr~~~ boa X)

2009-01-13T07:28:00.004+08:00

its in my garage

2009-01-10T18:31:00.001+08:00

wana ride? lets ride

adee'ing

2009-01-09T20:57:00.004+08:00

hmm... love? the truth is when your in love you put a side what the person who you love's down side... for instance... they maybe short, black, player, free loader, bad tempered, drinks, smokes, not a virgin, blind, handicap due to accident, gingers, mute n etc.. but when your in love with them all you see is them and how much you love them.. the others doesn't really matters.. no bodies perfect and people do makes mistakes.. what I'm trying to say is i know my husna isn't perfect, i know she has her down sides and her bad habits but i don't know.. ever time I'm with her all of that doesn't really matter to me.. i believe in changes and i believe I've changed her.. its just something about her makes me fall even deeper for her.. i know its to soon to seriously love someone..but i really don't know.. i just know if i let her go i will regret some day.. i just realize this a few days ago how important she is to me.. i mean i could be with anyone i wana be.. but every time she's off some where like Kl, KK, England n etc. i feel this empty space and i can't seem to do anything right.. i wander a lot.. i'll always wait and look at my phone.. and when she's back? she'd smile and say "miss me?" and I'd go.."sadang" and she'd nyamal and I'd look at her for hours.. and wander why am i so lost without her?? what ever i do o how stupid i act she'd laugh.. she's always so proud of having me as her boyfriend when she's with her family or friends.. i don't know its just something about her that makes me love her so much.. love makes people do stupid things either in a bad way or good way.. some say love is magic.. while i believe love is giving all your trust and someone to finish the missing puzzle in your heart and keeping it together forever..

2008 - 2009 together til this very daycelebrate at empire

2009-01-01T16:14:00.004+08:00

going out in pink hahhaha the awesome thing was we didnt even plan to wear the same colour...hahah dumb luck

gela time drive pun smpai bgmbr,syg bz main psp -_-"

cala wang....

at empire from the beach to the lobby

buang boring waiting for the fireworks

during the fireworks was bored brunei fireworks are lame

bepangku at the swimming pool xD

girlfriend ku ne XD

on the way to grab something to eat at the pantai restaurant at empire

at the parking, posing before going out hahaha

i love my girlfriend... i really do...

my words to you

2008-12-17T01:11:00.004+08:00

Everyday until the sun set, we get ourselves dirty with mud. those days were wasted foolishly, are hard to trow away. I'm a dreamer, but that's just the way i am. it's alright if you don't want to be broken like a jigsaw puzzle. to you when someone says "yes", it's the same as they said "no". we thought we would always be free... when the wind blows through tomorrow, Even if the puzzle is broken, nobody will blame us. that day, we believe that our dream weren't wrong. we just went cross a rough relationship. i always knew about the pain you carry in your heart... even if you leave me, and end up in a different place, we'll be able to smile in the end. even now, we continue dreaming. continue riding on those embraced dreams... we'll fight for what's right today, even with our pain, so that our promises won't become lies. and then one day, to you who left me, and now in a different place, i will send the completed puzzle.

words

2008-12-16T18:34:00.003+08:00

there is something i want to tell you...but its hard for me to express it...while i am lost...while i am searching...for that one. light that lives, the one I'm looking for! the more i chase after it...it runs away. the future is... not calm! again and again...we are dancing on a bridge. we are holding on to... tears and joy! even in the darkest of nights...tomorrow will always come!

the burden i carry alone

2008-12-12T00:25:00.009+08:00

why do i have to shed this tears every night? why do i still dream of you? why do i have to keep everything to my self and suffer alone? why does my mistake from my past still hunts me? why am i not moving on? why?

it has been 12days straight now I've been dreaming of her. but i have never thought of her to begin with. i know i love husna but why? why isn't it husna the one I've been dreaming of? why is it someone else? for all the hatred and anger I've build up for her but still.... everyday i have to make up a lie to husna saying everything is ok... everyday i kept thinking, wandering and got distracted.. husna would worry and ask "ok beh ka?" i would say "au ok beh, paning ja" then smile...but am i really ok? why suddenly the dreams i had was the dreams of her? why can it be someone else? i have never thought of her... every night i would call husna just to say "goodnight and i love you" i have never missed a day saying that and i meant it.. but still why? why am i still in pain? what can't i just forget? what is it so hard? this is too heavy for me...is there something i missed? is there something i didn't finished? i know dream are not true but my feeling are.... i promised my self to never make another girl cry form my mistakes.. i don't what the past to every repeat again!!!! soo many have shed their tears for nothing... in the end i finally known what it feels like to lose someone that is most valuable to me in life... love is a game true, but it is not an easy game... to think i have always won all this time but the truth is i lost... do i really hate her? do i really want to forget? do i really what her back? everyday this thought comes to mind... hurting me more and more when every thought comes to mind... daytime is husna I'll be seeing and at night its her I'll be dreaming... who do i really want to see?? husna or her?? my mind is telling i want to see husna but my heart is confused... ever since the day i start dreaming of her.. what is wrong with me? for the past few months i have never even thought of her let alone wanting to meet her.. but this dreams.. its messing with my head... is it because i my self don't understand my own feelings? is it because all my life I've been busy observing and understanding other people's feeling that i got carried a way and never really bother about my own feelings? i was always trying to be the hero..that i don't have a hero of my own... a hero doesn't just have to be who fight for people but also who listens and help other people with their problems.... since i was a child my goal in life was to make people around me smile,laugh and happy... it sounded so easy.. but is it? are all the people around me really smiling? are they really happy? whatever the dream is about i will find the reason... but for now I'll just have to bare with it... i love you to whom i really love... until i know the answer I'll just say it with out the name... all i know is i love you... and that this heart has already belong to you.....

it was a dream and i'm writing it in words

2008-12-11T23:11:00.002+08:00

a single flower pedal brushes against my skin, i don't want to believe our romance was a mistake. we've got a bad,bad habit of saying "everything is fine" and bottling it up. i always thought about how i wanted to be with you forever, but we don't see eye to eye. i assumed i could always make you smile in that soft,gentle way of yours like when we first met.i want to hold you...

a single flower pedal brushes against my skin, i don't want to believe our romance was a mistake.i thought i love you. i wanted to hear your voice more and more. and while my hand still reaches yours, i can't see what your future holds.

tagged by atin

2008-11-30T00:51:00.003+08:00

I was tagged by Atin

1. What’s the relationship of you and her/him?
= she's my "friple" been friends for 3 years now or more beats me...

2. Your 5 impressions towards her/him?

1. lunatic
2. Random.
3. Spoil
4. straight forward
5. awesome

3. The most memorable things she/he have said to you.
= i'll keep that to my self xD *friple secret*

4. The most memorable things she/he had done for you
= she hand fed me while i was playing with her laptop xD

5. If she/he becomes your lover, you will:
= Charis her and who her who's boss hahaha

6. If she/he becomes your enemy, you will:
= change her??

7. If she/he becomes your love, she/he has to improve on
= hmm... i know her well -_-" no need, i can handle her xD

8. If she/he becomes your enemy, the reason is
= i messed up and did something stupid "again"

9. The most desirable thing to do on him/her is?
= holy shit... trust me,me and her we're insane... dont even start with that question... you know right tin -_-" hahaha sooo pass~~~

10. The overall impression of him/her is
= spoil hahahha

11. How do you think the people around you feel about you?
= laughing their asses off, never boring and annoyed.

12. The characteristic that you think you have, is?
= god like -_-" hahaha...

13. On the contrary, the characteristic you hate of yourself is?
= being in rage and going black out -_-" and too down to earth

14. The most ideal person that you want to be is?
= when i grow up i wana be just like adee -_-"

15. For the people who care about you and like you, say something about them.
= you guys are everything too me..nough said...

16. 10 people you tag:
1. nisa
2. abg amy
3. f8in
4. naz
5. ayen
6. ray
7. pucung
8. jubur
9. ma mu
10. pa mu

17. Who is No. 2 having a relationship with?
= he's single

18. No. 3 a male or female?
= female

19. If No. 7 and No. 10 were together, would it be a good thing?
= stick combat -_-"

20. How about No.5 and No. 8?
= what the fuck? sorry ayen -_-" didnt mean it...

21. What is No. 1 studying about?
= i o know

22. Is No. 4 single?
= i think not...

23. Say something about No. 6?
= she's cute xp

chinese wedding dinner part 2

2008-11-29T18:27:00.011+08:00

I'll kill any fucker who does this to my girl or any girl(i fucking mean it)

2008-11-28T11:28:00.003+08:00

Guy:"Lets have sex right now."

Girl: "Can we do what?"

Guy: "You know, can I be your first, finally?"

Girl: "Um.....no."

Guy: "Why?"

Girl: "Because, 1. you have a girlfriend, who happens to be my friend......."

Guy: "So, if you don't tell, I won't tell."

Girl: "Besides that, I'm waiting for someone special. Someone that I want to be with for the rest of my life to be my first."

Guy: "I'm not special to you?"

Girl: "You're my friend. That's all."

Guy: looks forward and keeps driving.

5 minutes pass.......

Guy: starts to run his hand up the girl's thigh.

Girl: moves his hand, "Don't touch me.".

Guy: tries to kiss her.

Girl: screams, "Would you stop."

Guy: continues trying.

Girl: moves to the back seat

Guy: parks on an abandoned street and gets in the backseat with the girl. Starts to kiss her.

Girl: pushes him off and scoots over, "Please, don't do this."

Guy: "Don't do what, I know you want it, I can see it in your eyes." Moves over to her and starts to unbutton her pants.

Girl: pushes him harder and says, "No, don't."

Guy: getting aggravated, punches her and tells her to stop "playing hard to get".

Girl: crying, continues to fight.

Guy: punches her harder, pulls her pants off, and holds her down.

Girl: screams as he penetrates her, "NO, please don't do this to me!"

Guy: puts his hand over her mouth.

An hour passes.........

Guy: pulls back and wipes himself off.

Girl: sits on the corner of the seat, crying.

Guy: looks at her and says, "You better not tell anybody about this. If you're really my friend, you won't tell anybody about this. You know I love you." He reaches out his hand to touch her cheek.

Girl: pulls back, "Just take me home, now."

Guy: says, "Alright." Gets in the front seat and drives her home.

2 months later.........

Girl: "Doctor, what's wrong with me. I haven't had my time of the month in 2 months."

Doctor: looks at her, "You haven't been having your "time" for a reason."

Girl: looks at him and says, "Why?" dreading the answer that she was sure to receive.

Doctor: "You are pregnant."

Girl: faints.

The story gets out that she is pregnant, and people start looking to the Guy. He claims that it isn't his because she was sleeping with every guy in the school(which was a lie). He goes to her and tells her, "I'm telling you, if you lie to people and say that I raped you, I'll kill you."

The Girl is completely devastated. First, he took her virginity and got her pregnant....then he lied about it. So completely depressed......the girl commits suicide by drug overdose.......

Girls, if this story touched you, repost it as "No means no asshole"

Guys, if this story pisses you off, repost it as "I'll kill any fucker who does this to my girl or any girl"

the way I see it if you open and read this and DON"T REPOST this you must be for rape

tagged nisa ,atin ,amy, f8in, naz, ray

guitar hero world fucking tour!!!!

2008-11-17T21:30:00.009+08:00

the pandora's box xP

even apart it looks awesome hahahah too much

the world tour guitar

the treeds and the slider

*sniff* too awesome =')

the holy drum set~~ awesomeness~~~

afro nerd*hamdy*

afro retard*ajim*

afro master*adee*

afro rocker baby hahahha

the freakingly awesome guitar.. i hogged it most of the time cos i'm the main lead guitarist xD

only did vocal once on what i've done by linkin park!!!!!!!

i play the drums only the hard parts xD

injury from playing the drum...the drum are fucking awesome~~~ way better then rock bands

those actually are my blood -_-"

ajim the bands main bass player and Adee the bands life saver the lead guitarist,drummer and bass player....

hamdy* in the P.J* our lame vocalist and bass player, Fendy with the sticks our drummer and lead vocalist

indoor swimming pool at cuzn'a place

2008-11-17T21:25:00.003+08:00

ajim doggy paddling hahhaha

ajim and hamdy

chinese wedding dinner part 1

2008-11-12T16:08:00.007+08:00

all set and ready to go

mom and handsomeboy -_-"*that what i was called last night*

mom and adi

the cozens* ka lija and abg awang*

the cozens*abg muiz,ka babe and their daughter*

the kids escorting the newly weds

hand in hand

Nira and Willy

akim,nadia and azik* the bride's siblings*

cutting the cake

o yea zatty was also there last night *the food was great!!!!*

the newly Wed's dinner table

the red wine~~ they actually serve red wine and tiger beer~~~ Husna and Atin forbids me from trying it -_-"

saja

bored

mom and the playboy xD

mom and the groom*wally*

the Casanova

-_-"

the newly wed *nira n willy a.k.a wally*

pouring the drink

cross drink to the finish

the wedding cake

party with the bride*my couzen*

after party

part 2 will be post as soon as i obtain more pictures from my cousens but for now that's about it...

tagged by atin

2008-11-12T15:38:00.005+08:00

What is the most important thing in your life?
- Trust

What is the last thing you bought with your own money?
- a pack of condom -_-" hahhaaha..no la i bought chupa chups!!!

Where do you wish to get married?
- In a huge ship in the middle of the sea with those who trusts me

How old do you think you will be permanently owned by your love?
- haven't really given it a though but hopefully once i get a degree

Are you in love?
- FINALLY!!!!!

Where was the last restaurant you had dinner?
- restaurant pantai!!! XD

Name the latest book you bought.
- what is a book???

What is your full name?
- Pg. Md. Zulfadhli Bin Pg. Zulkifli

Name a person that you really wish to meet in real life or the first time.
- Kwan BOA!!!!!

Christina or Britney?
- Christina

Do you do your own laundry?
- Sometimes

The most exciting place you wanna go?
- boxing Ring anything can happen in there xD

Hugs or kisses?
- Both.

8 thing i am passionate about:
- Trust
- Style
- Game consoles
- Family.
- Love.
- Friends.
- Freedom.
- Fighting

8 thing i say too often:
- Kima
- Bota
- No shit
- FUCK!!!
- KO BAIE!!!
- pelacur~~~~
- GOD DAMMIT!!!
- KU TAMPAR KARANG KEPALA BAPA KAWAN MU AH *only say it to my siblings*

8 books i've read recently:
- I still don't get it...what the hell is a book????

8 songs i could listen to over and over again:
- Firasat
- vampire heart
- funeral of hearts
- lucky
- fury of the storm
- beautiful soul
- APL song
- in the end

8 things i learned last year:
- Shit happens.
- No body really keeps their promises.
- small doesn't mean weak.
- never spent too much on your love one's unless you'll really marry them -_-".
- friendship and relationship are the same.
- protecting the family is important.
- I've learn that I'm getting better in sweet talking as i age XD.
- when you wana have scandles? make sure its not your girlfriend's cousen or close frined unless your a dare devil like me XD hahahahhaha

Tag 8 people:

- nisa.
- to lazy its not like i earn money by tagging people

Tagging

2008-11-04T20:57:00.008+08:00

ABOUT MYSELF

1. What is your name?

; ZULFADHLI

2. How old are you?

; 20

3. When is your birthday?dd/mm/yy

; 27th May 1988'

4. How tall are you?

; 172cm in think

5. What is your weight?

; 56kg Dammit its not increasing!!!!!

SCHOOL LIFE

1. Which go did you go to?

; Mtssr

2. What class are you in?

; ND/CTN/26

3. You usually sit at the back or in front?

; the very back and sometime random

4. Who do you usually hang out with at school?

; sanal, k, ghazy, pye

5. What is/are your favourite subjects?

; Maths and structural mechanics!!!!

RELATIONSHIP

1. Are you single/taken/married?

; Married??

2. By who, if you are taken/married?

; Nee the person hugging me dari tadi *point at husna*

3. What is you longest relationship?

; 17months.

4. Ever given/received a rose from someone you loved?

; nope, never, no

5. When was the last time you said I Love You to someone?

; a few seconds ago

DEEPER

1. Have you ever kissed someone that belongs to other people?

; Do i have to answer that -_-"

2. Will you kiss the person you last kissed?

; It would be a privilege to kiss her again

3. Ever thought of wanting to make love with your love ones?

; what sort of question is that?? I'm only human -_-"

4. Hugs or kisses?

; Both please

5.Have you ever cry just because you love him/her so much?

; hey i love her no shame in that

PAST

1. Do you regret of being with any of you ex bf/gf?

; cherished every moment of it

2. What's one thing you regret of doing in the past?

; hurting them

3. Have you cry recently?Why?

; yes. Confused.

4. Have you ever regret of rejecting people's proposal?

; yea..

5. Who's the last person that you kissed and hugged?

; neee my husna

FRIENDS

1. Who are/is you close friends(s)?

; sanal, k ,ghazy, pye, zudy, ann, ching, ting, zuryn, jes, atin, nisa n bla bla bla to many meh

2. Will you do anything for them?

; sure!

3. How many times do you guys see each others?

; when we have the chance to. haha.

4. Love and friendship, which one will you choose?Why?

; definitely friendship.

5. Ever been used by you friends/use your friends?

; yes.

FAMILY

1. How many family members do you have?

; 7.

2. Which one are you close with?

; ajim and amy.

3. Do you tell EVERYTHING to your parents?

; you would have to be a superman to do that

4. Sleep alone or with siblings?

; It depends if they wana crash in my room

5. What will you do if you're living alone?

; so many hahahahha

FREEDOM

1. Are you allow to have bf/gf?

; Yes, My mum just made it clear to me about it -_-"

2. How many times you went out in a week?

; 7-7 time a week???

3. Does you parents look at your homework/schoolworks?

; *hide*

4. Does your parents read your inbox all the time?

; never

5. Are you allow to oversleep at you friends' place?

; I'm not a kid -_-"

RANDOM

1. What are you listening to right now?

; shockingly firasat by marcell -_-"

2. Are you currently eating/drinking something?

; nacho cheese and mango juice

3. How late did you stay up last night?

; till now?? (Z_Z)

4. Will you do anything just to get the things that you wanted?

; hoo yea i will

5. What will you do if the person that you love, doesn't love you anymore?

; let it be and move on cos i dont actually lose anything from it

tagged : ATIN and NISA

back together

2008-10-29T11:38:00.000+08:00

random berabis

2008-10-27T21:33:00.006+08:00

serious

fuck you

emo

kes penyeluru 1

s'up?

kes penyeluru 2

straight of i am not gay!!!! i did it cos i was fucking bored and ada surtain someone selalu pose catu so aku kira penyeluru ah ia la... besides i like making faces... enjoy life... doing this for your entertainment

messed up 2008

2008-10-17T15:45:00.002+08:00

2008...the most messed up year of my life...and to most people as well... i messed up a lot this year... I've hurt a lot of people and did the wrong things.. i'm so sorry... i loved someone a very close friend but i think that someone have given her love almost full to her man.. and i don't intent to ruin their relationship... this year i got into alot of fights... not really proud of my self... messed up people with my sweet words and bla bla bla...

to my friends?? i'm sorry i use to skip classes and made u guys think that i was already in my own world and forgot about you guys... i skip classes wasn't because i wanted to but i had to... i was really sick most of the time and the place i hangout was at RIPAS with my DOC... i'm sorry and thanks for giving me back your trust... PS - this raya was really awesome xD

to atin? i'm sorry if i really annoyed you that night... i was filled with anger... and that anger blinded me...i'm sorry... and now the past few day i just kept looking at you nick.. dont have anyone to chat with cos ur the only one i use o chat with everyday... your my friple... and i'm sorry

to husna... baby i love you but i don't know.. my head hurts... i'm still confused... and really afraid... i don't know what i should do... i don't want to hurt you... i want to love you... i have fallen in love with you... but you keep repeating your mistakes... i know people makes mistakes but u just keep repeating them... its really hard for me to let you go because all your family members have grown fond of me... but i will not give up loving you just yet... like you told me.. you have never meet someone like me who have changed your life.. who cares for you so much.. who protects you.. who was always there for you when you needed someone to cry on..and what moved me the most is that i showed you how really falling in love really feel like and that if anything were to happen between us.. atleast we tried..

to my army mans, my thugs, my gangster, my drug dealers..you guys are nuts hahaha...." ko nuts baie" hahhaaha... sorry for not hangign with you guys as foten as we use to now... kinda bz with my studies... but always remember " what ever we do and take e.g (drugs, weed, drinks, fighting, fuck) that feels good its always ok... but the effects and sins? that's your problem and fuck dont drag us into it" hahahha... brothers forever... PS-i dont smoke,do drugs, weed, drink and fuck but i fight xD

to everyone.. i'm sorry if i have offended anyone of you... I'M SORRY

hey chopstick read this!!!!!

2008-10-14T17:25:00.002+08:00

OK 1st off all...let me get this straight I AIN'T ARFAID OF NO ONE....big or small..the bigger the better.... so fuck off... fucking stop over reacting!!!!i ain't afraid off your Man.... mether fact he isn's even your husband yet!!! and remember you fucking told me your fucking self that if i looked at him i person I WILL LAUGH...u told me that your self!!! i swear to GOD you did..you even said his not handsome... what the fuck was that??? i just don't wana fight!!! because i respect you!!! but since you dont respect???i disrespect!!! if you really fucking want us to fight??? then fucking tell me!!!! i promised not to fight but don't fucking push me!!! i'm not a kid!!! i can promise you this by the end of the fight either one will go to the hospital and the other jail and seriously i dont mind both... cos when i fight i will not fight for your sake... i fight for my pride!!!! you think this is a game??? what the fuck is wrong with you??? i'm talking to you chopsticks!!!! you fucking typical jiwang bruneian!!!! you like to judge people by their look... forgetting the old friends and stick your mans friend??? BULLSHIT!!!what??? like your perfecr??? please i know your fucking secret!!! i have had enough... i can not allow people to push me around!!! you think me talking my way out of a fight meaning i'm afraid??? dont be fucking me!!! I AM FUCKING SICK OFF YOU!!! AND YOUR BITCHING AROUND!!! GET A FFFUUUKKKIIINNNGGG LIFE ALREADY!!!!

ending it with a bang

2008-09-27T16:30:00.011+08:00

BEFORE EXPLOSION X)

AFTER EXPLOSION XD

the Awesome video hahahahaha on the 0:20 - 0:23 second is my favorite part hahaha

before sending amy*1st'ling* we blow up his 5months of age laptop hahaha.... my bro's off to UK to continue his study but he'll be back June next year...hmm...gana miss ya bro...taking care....*wave then middle finger xD*

family photo on the 25th sept

2008-09-27T00:04:00.005+08:00

back row - adee*i looked messed up SIAL!!!!!!*,ajim*3rd'ling*,dad, amy*1st'ling*
front row - akim*6th'ling*, kaka * 4th'ling*, mum, tina*7th'ling*, arib*5th'ling*

emo'ish

2008-09-26T22:50:00.001+08:00

my fucking new hairdo looks emo -_-" dammit no pic sorry too lazy to take a picture of my emo'ish look...

waiting

2008-09-23T12:09:00.002+08:00

Did you ever hear what I told you?
Did you ever read what I wrote you?
Did you ever listen to what we played?
Did you ever let in what the world said?
Did we get this far just to feel your hate?
Did we play to become only pawns in the game?
How blind can you be, don't you see?
You chose the long road, but we'll be waiting

bye bye beautiful by nightwish

the gang green gang

2008-09-22T19:53:00.006+08:00

me and my baby in green..we never wore green together before so when she went to miri with her brother she decided to get me and her self a green shirt...

after sungkai at C.A.M when round2 in the car.... didn't go out just drove around spent sometime together

i love her so god damn much....thanks for the shirt baby...love u soo freaking much!!!!!

the super robot wars(OG) model i build pure perfection

2008-09-22T19:45:00.003+08:00

Alteisen (front view)

took me 12hours to build and this mother fucker is huge... its around 25cm tall around that range.... (side view)

the eyes and horn can actually light up and the buster is where you can store the battery for the bulb in the head to light up*duh* (back view)

tart nanas~~~

2008-09-22T19:28:00.002+08:00

my bucket full of tart nanas hahahahha....made them with husna xD

i love tart nanas like so fucking much...that's why the pineapple jams are so thick hahaha..and the crust are thin hahaha.... there's like 70+ tarts in there some kana munch dh -_-"

damn its a mouth full seriously no complaints so far hahaha... its actually really easy to make... but whats make it taste really good is husna made it with full of love and me full of awesome hahahhaahaha!!!

tagged!!!

2008-09-20T21:12:00.010+08:00

ARE YOU:
Perfect: no bodies perfect -_-"
Tall: kinda
In your pajamas: nope,I'm in my boxer
Left handed: nope.. i use my left hand to wash my ass after i shit

LAST:
Friend you saw: so many do i have to mention all?
Person you talked on the phone: baby husna
Person to text you: baby husna
Is today better than yesterday: yup i baked 150 pineapple tarts with husna and its all for me xD

FAVOURITE:
Number: 247
Colour: Black, red, pink, purple
Food: meat and cheese.
Place: KFC

QUESTIONS & ANSWERS:
Q: What was the first thing you did this morning when you got up?
A: slap ajim's head from the back and said" behapa ko?"

Q: Do you have anything bothering you?
A: being bored bothers me alot

Q: What's the last movie you watched in theater?
A: zohan

Q: Where is the last place you went?
A: the mall to buy husna the handbag she's been longing to get

Q. Do you smile a lot?
A: guess i smile too much

Q: Do you wish upon stars?
A: nope but i love laying on the roof looking at the stars

Q: Are you a friendly person?
A: too friendly just don't piss me off i can be the complete opposite

Q: Where did you sleep last night?
A: with your mum.. duh on my bed you dumb fuck

Q: Why did you sleep there?
A: because it was there for a reason and it feels fucking good sleeping on it

Q: When was the last time you cried?
A: when i lost her x| a man is never too strong too shed a few tears

Q: What was your last thought before going to sleep last night?
A: "yes suk buat tart nanas sama baby!!!"

Q: Rate life as of right now, one being bad, ten being great?
A: 8.7

Q: What do you hear right now?
A: lagu dari blog atin

Q: Does anything hurt you right now?
A: hurt me? can you hurt me?

Q: What is your favourite month?
A: May

EMOTIONS:
Are you missing someone right now: Yes, nurul xP
Are you single: hard to say....hahahah no I'm not
Are you tired: baked 150 pineapple tarts, drove from home -> katimahar -> jerudong -> serasa -> serusop -> gadong -> home... you do the math
Are your parents still married: you don't need to be a rocket scientist to figure that out

BASICS:
Real name: Pg. Md. Zulfadhli
Age: 20
Eye color: Dark brown
Zodiac sign: Gemini
Male or female: i have a dick
Single: taken
Crushing: too many soo little time
Smart: I guess... smart mouth xP
Hair color: Black
Sweats or Jeans: Jeans
Phone or Camera: can i include psp?
Health freak: not really
Righty or lefty: Righty

FIRST:
Best friend:her *point at best friend x(*
Award: mega-playboy *given by my ex-girlfriends*
Enemy: i aint a hater just fucking hate gay people
Pet: No time
Vacation: i wished

CURRENTLY:
Eating: chupa chups
Drinking: root beer
Llistening to: songs from Atin's blog and my blog *cm bota eh bunyinya*
Waiting for: Friends to chat with

WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE GENDER:
Lips or eyes: Eyes
Shorter or taller: Shorter xD
Romantic or spontaneous: Both
Sensitive or loud: a bit of both hehe
Hook-up or in a relationship: In a relationship

HAVE YOU EVER:
Drank bubbles: i was a kid -_-"
Lost glasses/contacts: tried like hell to ruin my eyes but never worked
Ran away from home: i have my responsabilities at home to keep things together
Broken someone's heart: too many, lost count
Been arrested: too slick hahahha

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
Do you like someone: Yup.
Are you seriously happy with where you are in life: Never did just couldn't help it

tagged by: Atin

true in a way

2008-09-20T00:41:00.008+08:00

Your Seduction Style: Fantasy Lover

You know that ideal love that each of us dreams of from childhood? That's you!

Not because you possess all of the ideal characteristics, but because you are a savvy shape shifter.

You have the uncanny ability to detect someone's particular fantasy... and make it you.

You inspire each person to be idealistic and passionate, and you make each moment memorable.

Even a simple coffee date with you can be the most romantic moment of someone's life.

By giving your date exactly what he or she desires, you quickly become the ideal lover.

Your abilities to make dreams come true is strong. So strong that you are often the love of many people's lives.

Your ex's (and even people you have simply met or been friends with) long to be yours.

No doubt you are the one others have dreamed of... your biggest challenge is finding *your* dream lover.

What Kind of Seducer Are You?

well maybe

2008-09-20T00:41:00.006+08:00

How You Life Your Life

You seem to be straight forward, but you keep a lot inside.

You're laid back and chill, but sometimes you care too much about what others think.

You tend to have one best friend you hang with, as opposed to many acquaintances.

Some of your past dreams have disappointed you, but you don't let it get you down.

How Do You Live Your Life?

true

2008-09-20T00:41:00.005+08:00

You Are Much Closer to Your Friends

Your friends are so great, it's hard not to be the closest to them.

As for your family, your relationship with them is probably a bit strained.

It's okay though. While you can't pick your family, you can pick your friends.

And you've picked some amazing friends who count as family to you.

Are You Closer to Your Friends or Your Family?

i suppose -_-"

2008-09-20T00:41:00.004+08:00

You Are the Mother

You have an abundance of love for humanity. You care about all the people of the world.

You love helping others more than anything else. You love to be needed.

At your best, you unconditionally love people. You are very nurturing.

You are a wise and gentle teacher. You are happy to guide anyone who needs your advice or explanations.

At your worst, you are controlling and overbearing.

You smother people with affection and gifts. And with this attention you give, you are expecting something in return.

What Family Role Do You Play?

USA???

2008-09-20T00:41:00.003+08:00

You Are the USA

You think you're the best around, and you love being admired.

You have many facets to your personality. No one can pigeonhole you.

You speak your mind freely about any and all topics. You value honesty and bluntness.

You are confident and direct. You never apologize for who you are.

What Country Are You?

adi

2008-09-20T00:41:00.001+08:00

What's Sexy About Your Name

You are sexy because you are always up for a fun fling.

You're sexually open and assertive. You know what you want, and you're going to get it.

You are a very physically attractive person. You take care of your body.

You are attracted to other gorgeous people - and you don't care if that's shallow.

You don't have many sexual hang ups or issues. You simply enjoy sex.

You are adventurous and open to new experiences. You experiment freely.

What's Sexy About Your Name?

hee xD

2008-09-19T16:52:00.002+08:00

Your Seduction Style: The Charismatic

You're beyond seductive, you're downright magnetic!

You life live and approach seduction on a grand scale.

You have an inner self confidence and energy that most people lack

It's these talents that make you seem extraordinary - and you truly are!

What Is Your Seduction Style?

baby jobless

2008-09-18T23:13:00.005+08:00

baby jobless gmbr time org drive.......
ia gmbr p nda blh pose!!!!!baby says"drive ja beh wh...liat ja dapan" dammit!!!!

majal bgmbr p aku mshi nda blh liat cam -_-"

i was fucking bored my self and baby wasn't feeling really good she had a fever.... p baby nda mau2 msti jua ikut -_-" well atleast she had a great day and happy and that made her a bit better knowing that i love her X)

hand in hand

2008-09-17T01:07:00.005+08:00

me and husna*the gf* went to go get some food for sungkai together today.... 1st we when to the stadium my site to get my kebabs and kueh melaya then other such as, mee goreng for ajim*the 3rd'ling*, mee teau for akim* the 6th'ling* and kaka*the 4th'ling*, kueh boom and daun ubi for grandma, husna got some kueh batik.. then when to pasar gadong.... husna's site hahah there i bought my usual JUBUR AYAM*tongkeng ayam xp* with honey~~~~ neways husna took the pic above while i was driving... she was kinda shy so she took the pic stealthly hahaha... then she set it as her wallpaper on her phone... she goes" beh beh beh wallpaper syg xp" and i was like "eh bila tu? and tgn sapa?" hahaha panat... kinda sweet in a way well thats y i love her i suppose... she's melt everytime i stare at her hehehe she'll go "jgn liat syg cm 2 wa beh *blush*" and try to turn my head away if she cant she'll just pintch my nose and it works hehehe.. i love u baby just cant get enough of u... i finaly realise that your were always there for me.. i was the 1 who didnt appreciated u and i'm sorry i cant be selfish and wiat for other girls while ur with me... you always say that i'm your hero cos i gave you the love life that you never had and always protecting you... but to me your my hero always beening there for me when i'm alone, loved me when i needed to be loved..always waiting for me to love you when i stupidly waited for others while their happy with their own life... thanks for always been putting up with me and now i'm gana grab hold and never letting you go... i mitch u nurul husna xD

hahahahaha

2008-09-16T14:48:00.004+08:00

You are a Don't Fuck With Me Seme!

Serious and to the point, and sometimes bordering on the sadistic, it takes a special breed of uke to satisfy your needs. You tend to be anti-social with little patience for most people. You need someone to challenge you and push you to your limits, and then be able to take your intense reactions, which possibly involves rope and sensual torture. This is what makes the Badass Uke the yin for your yang, as you're the only one able to put them in line and satisfy each other.

Most compatible with: Badass Uke

Least compatible with: Dramatic Uke, Innocent Uke, Clueless Uke

What seme or uke are you? Take the experience at SemeUke.com, or find merchandise here.

Quiet, intense, and observant, the DFWM Seme will see right through you to reveal your true motives, and won't hesitate to set you in your place. This is the most easily misunderstood seme - brooding and intense, it takes a special kind of Uke to seek out and uncover the deeply sensual and protective side this seme has hidden beneath their dark appearance.

Other common traits of the DFWM Seme personality include being: stubborn, persistent, obvervant, possessive, and determined. DFWM Seme also tend to be relentless when provoked into anger.

The Don't Fuck With Me Seme personality best (but not always) corresponds with these associations:

Japanese Element: Earth

Chinese Zodiac: Ox

Color: Steel

Fruit: Grapes

Dessert: Dark Chocolate Brownies

Theme Song: Countdown by Hyde

Don't Fuck With Me Seme - The dramatic yin and yang of this seme and uke work perfectly. The physical aspect of the DFWM Seme balances out the emotions of the Badass Uke and creates an intense, sensually explosive relationship of control and submission, as each of them completes the other.

bored ep.6 edit

2008-09-13T14:57:00.007+08:00

baby i love you so much....there ain't nothing more important in my life then you....your hugs are indescribable, your kisses are beyond reality, being loved by you is like being love the the goddess of perfection her self...you complete me... living without you is so dark and cold... because you are the one that lit my life and warm my heart... there maybe even more beautiful and perfect girls then you but it don't matter to me because you have a perfect soul for me and to me the word beautiful describes your well... you laugh to the jokes i tell.. you smile to the things i do... you cry to the mistakes i did... i am more afraid of losing you then you are of me... you say i stole you heart but i placed it right beside mine.... you are the remedy to all the pain i could ever have... god must have made you by mistakes because you are to perfect for me... you are the answers to my questions, the beat of my heart and and the love in my life... thank you

was bored....typed it randomly AND its for husna the source of inspiration for my poems because most of the phrase describes her heeee xD

bored ep.5

2008-09-11T13:36:00.006+08:00

since the first day of puasa... I've been studying my ass off and every night i sleep on the sofa cos i was to tired even to get my blanket..i just sleep with my boxers on the sofa hahaha!!!!! with my pencil in hahahah... i poke my self sometimes.... sometimes i sleep with my head on the keyboard hahaha...the laptop can be really hot sometimes...so far my puasa's full and i plan to keep it that way...my life isn't as fucked up as before now.... still thinking about my "best friend" tho... miss u!!!!! dammit!!! my life use to revolve around you...things isn't quite the same now without you....never like losing any of my friends...but i finally lost one that mean the most to me (T_T) gah~~~been lessening to love songs now a days.... hahah weird.....from black metal, heavy metal, hippidy hop hahah..... rap, and bla bla bla....now? just hear the songs in this blog hahaha.... i feel empty at times... if your read this my best friend? i miss you so much... i really wana stop sweet-talking but I'm really use to it...its the way i talk... i messed up most of my female friends because of it dammit!!!! its really awesome to sweet-talk but its crap when you cant tell the difference between regular talk from sweet-talk... I'm bored so I'm just gana type randomly here... what i do in life? i usually observe people around me... not in a perverted way dammit!!!! as in how they behave, what do they like and bla bla bla... so that i have a better understanding of people around me.. so I'd know how to talk to them, what they like,dislike and bla bla bla...trust me ask some of my close friends i can read them like a book... i enjoy being trusted, people whining at me and asking for advise.... i feel appreciated hee x)... to me there is nothing more important in life then trust... because to me trust is the main key... hmm.. i enjoy protecting people... i will fight for my friends, i don't mind getting hurt cos i enjoy it... pain is so addictive hehehe... i cant stand looking at girls crying... cos i made countless number of girls cry because of my selfish mistakes... i know sorry isn't enough but its all I've got to say... and believe me if a could turn back time and redo my mistakes I'd do it.... i like to go out in style~~ hahaha... ever since i was 7 my auntie mani always say" ia plg pndai be'style adi ane dari adi-beradinya yg lain" hahaha.. even my bro's ask for my advise on what to wear sometimes hahaha... I'm no metro sexual dammit!!! i know you were thinking of it!!!! well my head hurts from a lot of thinking hahaha.... so I'm gana go do some gaming for awhile... so screw you guys I'm gone xD * wave with only the middle finger showing* hahaha

spiky again soon

2008-09-08T16:40:00.002+08:00

soon!!!!i will go dragoon again!!!!!

be you self and stop blaming other people

2008-09-06T21:01:00.003+08:00

til the time come's for you to be you're own man or woman...and take on the world?and you did..but some where along the line..you changed....you stop being you..you let people stick a finger in your face and tell you,your no good..and when things got hard?you started looking for something to blame....like a big shadow...let me tell you guys some thing you already know...the world ain't all sunshine and rainbows...its a very mean and nasty place....and i don't care how tough you are?it would beat you to your knees and keep you there permanently if you let it...you,me or nobody....is gana hit as hard as life....but it ain't about how hard you hit..its about how hard you can get hit and keep moving foward, how much you can take and keep moving forward..thats how winning is done...now if you know what your worth?now go out and get what you worth....but chu gata be willing to take the hits...and not pointing fingers say you aint where you wana be because of him or her or anybody...cowards do that!!! and that aint you!!!!your better than that!!!

out of words

2008-09-01T20:56:00.004+08:00

maybe I'm going to close this blog down...why?i don't really use it much....i don't know,should i shut it down or just leave it for a while until i come up with something to write fast before i delete it!!!!for this past few day my life is messed up...husna*the gf* have been having dreams of me leaving her and she's been crying which hurts me hearing and seeing her crying..both in a way its like she believes the dream more then me,which made her repeat"beh kan tinggal kn syg?" and hurt cos i made someone i love cry again.......my female friends keeps whining and bugging me!!!!!, family problem fucking messed up....i can't sleep at night!!!!the trust is the only place i can really calm down is with you guys....my friends..a place for me to unmess up and forget my problems....those are..Atin and nisa people for me to bully and go crazy with thanks guys...and guys at school is where the real remedy is....i don't know what I'd do without any of you guys.....you may think I'm being to mussy and gay'ish,well fuck you cos i love you guys....and i trust everyone of you with my life.... I'm in a state of blockage right now...later...and oyea fuck you!!!don't be too proud of your self!!!!

I FOUND MY LOVE!!!!!!

2008-08-23T17:01:00.002+08:00

finally found it lost it for 4 months dammit!!!!the pink one's mine btw hahaha

i don't give a rat's ass is u say pink is too soft for a guy well here's what i say...fuck you xD

chicken shit outfit for my final year presentation

2008-08-21T16:19:00.003+08:00

cam lam tv hahahahaposing gitu lo....hahaha before liat movie zohan with my bro ajim*3rd'ling*

tucked out*mkn choki choki*

retarded look*msh makan choki choki*

was bored wh!!!!!

bringing my gramps for X-ray at ripas

2008-08-21T16:17:00.004+08:00

X-ray wuu~~~restricted yo~~~

my gramps being abducted hahahaha....chill gramps u'r alright

the all seeing eye...wow~~~~ god like hahahah*pikachu i choose u...go pikachu!!!use thunder bolt*hahahaha

the control panel....was tempted to mess with it p krg te'fucked up my gramps hahaha nda jadi.....

the wall painting was like retarded...what the hell were they thinking???retard!!!!hahaha mcm kids classroom...what cough my attention was this painting of mobi"dick"hahahahahahahah

at pantai berakas

2008-08-19T21:40:00.004+08:00

my baby girl buang boring bfnya lambat kuar keta~~hahahaha....

majal wh kn duduk together in one swing~~~btw she bite!!!!!usul ja innocent....

orang nyamal tarus kn balik xp

actually there's more but its privet photos hahaha.......at least i had fun with her....and i love her...my baby girl...penyamal~~~ xp

speaking for my self or for everyone

2008-08-19T20:10:00.004+08:00

hmm....trust is really hard to obtain and to give.....i know.....even i my self find it hard to trust people sometimes....and tis why we need to get to know them more....friendship,relationship,team,group and whatever..everything is base on trust....with out trust everything will fall apart....all i could ever ask for is trust..i dont want money,a car,a hot girl, or anything else...because people can love you all they want,as deep as they want but if they dont trust you its pointless....yea sure people back stab each other sometimes n bla bla bla....but sometimes they do if for a reason...maybe their selfish,maybe they have no choice and their trying to protect you or maybe they just fucking hate you're guts!!!hahaha......the point is,this is life....we need to learn to trust people....live a little....people make mistakes....so please if your reading this....i dont have to say you're name....i know i use to be a player....but the old me is no more....people change and so can i....tis why i need your trust to keep me this way....to have something to believe in and something to hold on to so my past wont happen again....

abit of me in words

2008-08-17T10:53:00.001+08:00

i just want u to know i was always watching you.u we're always the best always shining so bright just watching u made me happy.and thats why i was always behind u.i wanted to be with u i just wanted u to love me like you use to.i tried to make up for what I've done but i kept making u mad n made things worst.always showing my feelings in anger and jelousy.i wish i cud remmbr how this whole mess started but i do remember how it use to be when we we're together.that was the best time of my life,we had so much fun,we had all da time in the world and more importantly we had each other.i knew that no matter what my problem was as soon as i talked to you it wud be gone.u we're always there for me when i needed you o even when i didn't you we're the only one in my life i could truely count on and tho i do watch you from a distance i know it must be that way.i want u to know I've given up hope on what might have been but I've kept the memories of what was.o yea i do have a small favor to ask,i want...i want you to always b happy no matter what happens and the reason is you we're the only girl i have truely fallen in love with..goodbye

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jewels and gems are beautiful true but the jewel i seek is divine.only a true heart can claim it.but it is there in front of you.revealed to an undeserving world. the pinnacle of pure beauty, and only those who love it deserve to share its presence. not even heavens could contain this jewel. designed for seven days by the goddess of beauty, crafted for seven days by the goddess of love, and polished for 100 days by the goddess of purity...it is the most pure and brilliant jewel. and its name is husna.

husna, the name alone is like the blazing of a thousand torches!and my heart is like moth to that flame,my very soul is pulled into that jeweled blaze

people say husna deserve gift such as gold,silver,diamonds,jewels and etc. husna deserves a gift,true.but it must be a gift that will grow in power and beauty every day!only love is such a gift! i would risk anything to give such a gift to lady husna
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you are a shining star that lit my way as i roamed the darkened earth, until i meet you my heart was empty....but now, it is different. i have experience both happiness and fear..happiness in experiencing the light that is your love.. and fear of losing it; a light that is more precious then life it self...

written by
beh(zulfadhli)

it will never disappear my love will shine like the star, forever...

please...
don't let me go....

written by
syg(nurul husna)

random

2008-08-15T19:45:00.003+08:00

i was like bored and decided to chill outside the house.....and 1 by 1 the pigeons came.. was awesome~~~~ i was like *BIRD FLU!!!!WE'RE GANA DIE!!!! RUN!!!!eh jap gambar lu.....*there was actually twice the number of pigeons but some retarded dude threw some stones at the pigeons*koff koff koff*

zul and husna

2008-08-15T12:33:00.001+08:00

showing no respect because i disrespect

2008-08-14T15:50:00.002+08:00

To all the gay father fuckers out there first of all i would like to say fuck all off you and i hope all of you go to hell and you die.....bitches.....i have nothing against the word gay because i say it all the time, I'm just really against those that are gay.....gay is messed up seriously....thing about it...a dude with another dude...never a pretty sight....look at lesbians...awe~~~~some~~~~~yea sure its a women with another woman but they still use dildo which is an artificial "dick"...altho they should give a real dick a shot..cos dildo doesn't have any organs attached to it i mean a person to hug,bite and kiss you...lesbians are o~~~k~~~~but you gay father fucker's are messed up....dude and a dude??shit what the fuck it that??in real life a sword is a dick...a "sword" with another "sword" don't match....mix em together and its either you end up injured or dead...."sword" is meant to be put the the lid*pussy*you feel me??? yea sure i may not feel what you gay fuckers feel but you know what?i would rather die then to ever know how it feel to be in you gay father fucker's shoe....every bit of me hates every bit of you gay people....cos there is no sense of logic in it and its all BULLSHIT...sorry to say but i mean it....i fucking hate you guys even tho you have nothing against me or do anything to me....cos i don't give a shit i was born to hate you guys....unless you fuckers decide to be straight and fuck the opposite sex?then hey welcome brother hahahah...you can hate me...look for me....hunt for me....I'll be standing here with my own two feet hating you're corrupted soul for the rest of my life.....

form Adee with fuck you XD

rebel

2008-08-13T18:16:00.002+08:00

eca teacher: ahir jua ko dtg awangku
adee: oh..baik jua ku dtg dari nda,apa jua gnya eca mcm th dpt scholarship if ku dtg awal
eca teacher: mulut mu ane wh...bukn dlm skulh ne...
adee: napa kn?kn cekgu kerajakn x?nda berani....hahahah...
eca teacher: hahaha gela wh ko ane , ada ada saja,bh sign attendance mu ah...warm up lu before start
adee: au...*signing* bh cekgu chow ku...gf ku nungu dlm keta...chow...
eca teacher:OI JGN KO LARI..BAIK KO BALIK KEMARI!!!!!
adee:*jalan ja buat nda dngr....*

pls do not do this if nda gela n pro....ada yg sakit krg.... and this is nating to be proud of and not a good example...p rugged hahahah...

improved and proud hehehe

2008-08-12T19:05:00.003+08:00

someone said i looked smart with glasses xD

and she said i really worked out hehehe cant post the pic tho due to the awesomeness hahahaha.....my hard work really paid off.....gata improve more tho....weight lifting everyday as usual just gata put more time to it then usual xD...tempting to post the pic p krg kana ucp show off so i won't post it....neways i'm sleepy and retarded...suffering from retardation right now due to lack of sleep...so yea later~~

off

2008-08-11T20:54:00.000+08:00

hitting the books form now until 7:00am 2morw...

question

2008-08-11T13:32:00.000+08:00

would you be paid more if you had a PHD and working as a prostitute?

bored ep.4

2008-08-10T22:47:00.004+08:00

(O_O)dull expression,(O_o)questioned,(T_T)tears,(X_X)dead,('',)^^,)cuddle from behind*head meets*,(^_^)happy,(-_-)sleepy o bored o slumber o ........,(O(oo)O)piggy o bear,(.Y.)wtf?.....i'm out of ideas...k i'm gana hit the sack goodnight

DUCK!!!!AH I MEAN FUCK!!!!!

2008-08-10T20:15:00.001+08:00

I LOST $40...HELIP ME HELIP ME!!!!!FUCK!!!!WHERE THE HELL DID I DROP IT??????

redness adeeness

2008-08-10T11:31:00.009+08:00

i welcome you to the red room...it ain't that big its just long..as you can see how fucked up the room its due to still early and a retard slept in there.....the window is really useful because everyone In the house can hear you and its at he center of the house and it "fit'able"hehehe...it can be use for lots of purposes,me?i used it for hunger call...open the window and shout"aunti MAKAN!!!! SAMA BUAT KN SUNQUICK"HAHAHAHAHA

my red picture frame and my teddy bears in the red box *husna bought them for me"thank you syg!!!!!red = me, purple = husna* and it looks the same as in the picture hahaha

my red conner..well thats where i sleep and its my room..ajim*the 3rd'ling*sleeps in the same room to due to his aircond got fucked up...

my dark red door

my red mini speaker...it may be small but the sound?fucked up man..shocking!!!!and it's KFC...hahaha now you know i often i got to that place...and it doesn't need the powerplug..just connect it's USB cable to the laptop and the pointing thingy BOOM!!!i have loud sound hahahah and its red hahahaha

the beg packs also red hahahah

the gundam models...most of em are abg.amy's*the 1st'ling* the two standing one's are ajim's*the 3rd'ling* the left one standing could have been mine but i owe abg.amy some money*koff koff bitch koff koff*they all came from japan yo~~~~~
the retard who love's red...red shirt,red boxers XD,red bed sheets,red blanket,red laptop,red room, ultraman hairstyle*note - ultraman's red*bwahahahahah

it still hunts me

2008-08-10T10:22:00.002+08:00

dammit!!!!i was awesomely asleep until my brother ajim*the 3rd'ling*switched on my laptop and clicked Mozilla n left it there while he went some where....my blog was the home page and the fucking song cautionary warning auto played....it was the fucking same loud song my dumb ass of a brother amy*the 1st'ling*had for his annoying alarm every fucking morning!!!!!n i went"what the fuck???tingl kah handphone nya ane???"pnya it was my laptop...fucker~~~~kinda miss having that short bastard around..well he'll be back soon...argh!!!my eyes are itchy!!!!but its red~~awesome~~~well that about it..gana do some weight lifting..later fuckers XD

ok night

2008-08-09T23:35:00.004+08:00

just got back from my cuzn's house at mata-mata...tiring tho...won two lucky draw..1. toilet paper 2. cheesy puffs...hahahah well since i love cheese its batter then nating except my bloody cuzn got the bloody tv~~~~oyea when there with husna*the gf* well i guess she got the greenlight from everyone...i gave her the toilet paper hahahaha....we splited a bit early to get some fuel...then we drove around gadong together hand in hand cos i prefer driving with 1 hand looks cooler XP hahahah besides i get to hold her hand that's all that matters....the went to pasar malam and got "jubur ayam"hahahhahaha tongkeng with honey emmm....yummy....hehe....then i drove her home....then i drove like mad again on the way home hahahah was bored....mitching her!!!!bubye cinta~~~now i'm blogging and chatting with amah....my nick was adee*what would you do if all your friends we're your enemies?*-=amah you are my tissu to my inggus=- hahahahah....amah jua banar....but still a good friend tho even tho amah hahahah!!!!!

bored ep.3

2008-08-09T17:31:00.003+08:00

my brother's off to japan*wave "bring me back a Japanese chick"*now i'm hogging the internet all to my own hehehe.....today?hmmm....nating much..went to skul...still a loner as usual...dicthed class and went jalan with husna*the gf* took out some cash not much just a few hundred XD fatch my bro from pteb and ate at KFC!!!!!!!again CHEESY WEDGE!!!!WITH EXTRA CHEESE!!!!!hahaha.......then went home.....was that bored....

showing respect

2008-08-08T14:19:00.002+08:00

my honored brethren, we come together,to unit as one, against those that are damned,we show no mercy, for we have none,our enemies shall fall, as we uprise,to clam our fate,now and forever,we'll be together....

red~~~~~

2008-08-08T12:22:00.003+08:00

red = awesome

needs abit more work

sprayed it my self..tin nda g sama XD

random

2008-08-08T10:40:00.000+08:00

aku memang di lahirkan terrer dan handsome!!!bwahahahahaha

ok that was retarded

2008-08-08T09:20:00.000+08:00

no one told me there was a Brunei time zone!!!!!!!

weak morning

2008-08-08T08:11:00.000+08:00

(-_-).....................................................................................................................................................................................................still sleepy~~~but my arshole of a brother was playing a stupid Malay song!!!!!!MALAY SONG EARLY IN THE MORNING AT 5AM!!!!how fucked up was that??hell if it was English i wudnt mind.....messed up.....wen to the toilet looked at the mirror and say what i always say"morning you awesome piece of shit".....washed my face.....then be'udu and went praying......the went out side as usual and shout"HEY!!!!!!"(note it was 5:45am XD) went back in and warm up before i work out.....played with the dumbbells,sit ups and did 30 explosive push ups~~~*lame*then went awesomely sexy hahahah and took my shower and it was cold as hell*since when was hell cold??*done showering put on my gear*trying to sound cool*aha....then finally blogging just to annoy the shit out of u people XD

bored ep.2

2008-08-08T00:58:00.003+08:00

i'm bored seriously...on bed staring at the laptop for quite sometime now....to lazy to even move....just got back from plaza hotel at kulap...my cuzn marriage is gana be there so was helping out for a bit,then ate at KFC KANA BELANJA!!!CHEESY WEDGES!!!!WITH EXTRA CHEESE!!!!hahhahaha got to love them cheese~~~~ate 2 cheesy wedges,zinger burger and 2 pieces of chicken xD....then drove home alone like a mad man...was trying to kill boredom so what the hell...then went hope and removed my jeans and went boxers hahahahhahaha......then went to toilet to BERIA hahahahhahahhahhahahha....i crack my self up....neways i'm bored later

bored ep.1

2008-08-07T19:39:00.001+08:00

hi my name is adee...i'm 20years old but people say i look 16...*retard*

bh m off later..

gela!!!!!

2008-08-07T18:50:00.000+08:00

the blog finally looks abit batter thanks to atin....THANK YOU!!!!!today's 1 hell of a day....exam was goddamn hard....my head bloody hurts....and I'm fucking sleepy!!!!still editing this god forsaking blog tho....well i'm out of words....later

helip me...helip me....hahahahaha

2008-08-07T01:49:00.000+08:00

how do you fucking edit a blog???????argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

eye begging

2008-08-07T01:38:00.001+08:00

its fucking 1:39 am in the fucking morning...haven't slept for 2days...yesterday due to designing a staircase, it was a 3weeks work and i did it in ONE FUCKING NIGHT!!!!!NOW?????i got a an exam at 8:30am TODAY!!!!studied abit.now i chatting with CODENAME "AMAH" on editing this fucking blog...so now i'm gana continue studying so u guys can fuck off XD

The Devil Of DayBreak - The Rebellious Renegade

moving on is never easy

my dreams

my new desktop XD and life -_-"

its was TWO years on the 24th of may 2009

GELA JUA 2 -_-"

princess MNB birthday

our phone are a like as too our feelings towards each other

me and baby and susi and mirul

bored'ing

the ugama method of opening a locked cubicle -_-"

LG KS360 RED

adee emo'ing

1 vs 2 in dotA Allstars

*****

fishs with ass

.....

bored...

grr~~~ boa X)

its in my garage

adee'ing

2008 - 2009 together til this very day*celebrate at empire*

my words to you

words

the burden i carry alone

it was a dream and i'm writing it in words

tagged by atin

chinese wedding dinner part 2

I'll kill any fucker who does this to my girl or any girl(i fucking mean it)

guitar hero world fucking tour!!!!

indoor swimming pool at cuzn'a place

chinese wedding dinner part 1

tagged by atin

Tagging

back together

random berabis

messed up 2008

hey chopstick read this!!!!!

ending it with a bang

family photo on the 25th sept

emo'ish

waiting

the gang green gang

the super robot wars(OG) model i build pure perfection

tart nanas~~~

tagged!!!

true in a way

well maybe

true

i suppose -_-"

USA???

adi

hee xD

baby jobless

hand in hand

hahahahaha

bored ep.6 *edit*

bored ep.5

spiky again soon

be you self and stop blaming other people

out of words

I FOUND MY LOVE!!!!!!

chicken shit outfit for my final year presentation

bringing my gramps for X-ray at ripas

at pantai berakas

speaking for my self or for everyone

abit of me in words

random

zul and husna

showing no respect because i disrespect

rebel

improved and proud hehehe

off

question

bored ep.4

DUCK!!!!AH I MEAN FUCK!!!!!

redness adeeness

it still hunts me

ok night

bored ep.3

2008 - 2009 together til this very daycelebrate at empire

bored ep.6 edit